I’m Not Supposed to Tell You

I’m not supposed to tell you
Tell you how I feel
Tell you about my feelings
Tell you I love you still
Tell you this isn’t easy
Tell you that this still hurts
Tell you how much I need you
Tell you how much I care
Tell you what it does to me
To see you standing there
I’m not supposed to tell you
Tell you I want you back
I’m not supposed to get in your way
While your life gets back on track
I’m not supposed to tell you
About the hole that’s in my heart
About how much I miss you
Now that we’re apart
I’m not supposed to tell you
Of what I feel inside
Fear that I’ll be left behind
Left to watch from the sideline
Watch you find happiness
Watch you & your family
Watch you enjoy your new life
One that doesn’t include me
I’m not supposed to tell you
Of all those things you did say
About always and forever
That we’d always be together
That you’d never go away…