The Ripcord

What if I finally do it?
What if I pull this string?
What if I finally put myself first?
What if I chase this so called life,
That I feel that I deserve?
What happens to my children?
What happens to my wife?
What happens to the family,
My duty to provide?
What happens if I make this change?
Chasing a brand new start
Chasing someone who no longer
Keeps me inside her heart
What if it’s all for nothing,
The dreams and all the plans?
Lose it all and walk away
With nothing but empty hands?
Left alone with nothing,
But hurt and endless pain?
What if I finally do it?
What if I pull this rip cord?
Will my chute fail?
Will I crash and die alone?
Or will I finally soar up high
And touch the sky?
Up where I think I belong…