Month: April 2021

Stronger

I wish that I was stronger
I wish I could move on
I wish I wasn’t bothered
By our love that’s gone.
I wish that I was stronger
I’d take away this pain
I’d box it up and throw it out.
I’d get over the disappointment
Of living my life without
Hearing your voice everyday
Your words, they gave me strength
Now your love is gone away
No longer strong, I’m weak
To make myself feel stronger
No weightlifting will cure
To make myself stronger
Waiting I must endure
I wish that I was stronger
And could pickup my heart
If I were stronger, I could move on
Now that we’re apart.

I’ll Always Be Here

I’ll always be here for you
Just like you were me
Except when your heart is broken
When you can barely breathe
I’ll always be here for you
Except when you need me most
I’ll be busy focusing on
What matters to me most
I’ll never reach out to you
Never will I check in
But I’ll always be here for you
I’ll always be your friend
I’ll always be here for you
Unless you need me now
Figured it all out on your own
Even though you don’t know how
I’ll always be here for you
Except when you feel alone
I’d love to stop and help you
But I need to move on.
I’ll always be there for you
To guide you through this maze
To help you out of the fog & haze
Just don’t need me right now
I’m too busy to help you
Like I said I would
I need to focus on myself
Like you wish you could
But I’ll always be here for you
Except when you need me most
Then I’ll disappear, disappear like a ghost…

Waking Up

I want to wake up beside you
I want to wake up with you in my arms
To see the sunlight on your face
Upon our bed so warm.
I want to get and do the chores
So you can enjoy your sleep
Then back to you I would return
With your cup of coffee.
I want to slip back in the covers
And kiss you on your lips
To run my hand across your skin
Feel you on my fingertips.
I want to wake up bedside
A lazy Sunday snuggle
I want to wake up beside you
To be the teddy bear you cuddle.
I want to wake up beside you
Your arms wrapped around me
But to wake up beside you
It would have to be in a dream

Can I Win Your Love Back?

Can I win your love back?
Or am I just a fool?
You said your heart is guarded
No one you’ll give it to
Are we really over?
Is all this for naught?
Never can we go back
To the place where we forgot?
Have you really moved on,
To the new part of your life?
And in the future chapters,
Are you no longer my wife?
Will you be here when I need you?
Just like you said you would?
To help me, like I helped you
Through times both bad and good.
Can I win your love back?
Or am I fooling myself?
That part of us is gone now,
And there’s nothing of that left?

Anxiety

I do this to myself
It’s all inside my own head
Anxiety, Longing, Misery & Dread
You never said that you hated me
Never said we couldn’t be friends
That you just couldn’t give someone else your heart again
You said you needed space
You said you needed time
To figure out how to move on
To figure out your new life
But in my head, all I heard
“That’s It! We’re Done! We’re through!”
But in reality you said
“I need to learn to live my life without you…”
“You needed to devote your time to work and family…”
What I heard inside my brain
“You’re planning to move on without me…”
I’ll give you time, I’ll give you space
I’ll let you move on with your life.
Stuck inside my head,
Left standing in place,
Fighting all these thoughts inside my mind…

She Gets You

She Gets You
3 little words
That I say all the time
You say “Yes She Does”
Like you actually understand
She gets to buy you presents
She gets to take you out
She gets to see you all the time
She gets to come over to your house
She gets to spend time with you
And with your family
She gets your love
She gets your time
She gets to live inside your heart
She even gets to hear your voice
She gets to see your face
Though your love for me is gone
Your love for her wasn’t erased
She gets walks with you
She gets to sit with you on the beach
She gets late night snuggles
She gets you in the sheets
She gets a front row seat
For your brand new life
She gets you every day
She gets you all the time
She even got to get you
Back when you were mine
So when I say She Gets You
It’s said with jealousy
Because when I say
She Gets You
SHE Gets You, but not ME…

She Already has a Soul Mate

She already has a soul mate
She already has a best friend
Someone’s already there inside heart
That’s why she can’t let you in
She already has a partner
That’s makes her whole life shine
She already has a lover
She’s been there all the time
She already has a fire
She already has a flame
She already had someone
That she gave her heart to
She already has a soulmate
That soul mate isn’t you…

Grey Street

Grey Street now breaks my heart-
Used to be one of my favorite songs
But the words now haunt me
Every time the song comes on
There’s an emptiness inside me
I’d do anything to fill it in
If I could somehow win your heart
And win your love again
And it breaks my heart…
If I did believe in God
I would pray every night
But I know that he won’t listen
There’s no end to this in sight…
And it breaks my heart…
There’s a loneliness inside me
Oh I’d do anything to fill it in
Now there’s a cold blue ice inside her heart
Said she can’t love me anymore
And it breaks my heart…
She broke my heart
And turned my world
To Grey….

Bracelets

Do you still wear my bracelets?
Do you still wear my charms?
Do you still wear the reminders,
Of my love there on your arm?
Do you carry my love with you,
There upon your wrist?
Do you still wear the tokens,
to remind you that you’re missed?
Do you wear them out of habit?
Just another accessory?
Or is it a reminder of the love we had?
Or just a mnemonic that you made it through the bad?
Do you still wear my bracelets?
And if I’m still around your wrist?
Do they still remind you,
That it’s you I miss?
Do you still wear my bracelets?
Do they catch your glance?
Do you still wear my bracelets?
Do I still have a chance?

The Ripcord

What if I finally do it?
What if I pull this string?
What if I finally put myself first?
What if I chase this so called life,
That I feel that I deserve?
What happens to my children?
What happens to my wife?
What happens to the family,
My duty to provide?
What happens if I make this change?
Chasing a brand new start
Chasing someone who no longer
Keeps me inside her heart
What if it’s all for nothing,
The dreams and all the plans?
Lose it all and walk away
With nothing but empty hands?
Left alone with nothing,
But hurt and endless pain?
What if I finally do it?
What if I pull this rip cord?
Will my chute fail?
Will I crash and die alone?
Or will I finally soar up high
And touch the sky?
Up where I think I belong…