Creeping Back

I’m trying
I really am
I don’t like feeling this way
Anxiety and depression
Creeping back in every day
I’ve tried mediation
I’ve tried audiobooks
I’ve tried reaching out to friends
But every step forward
Seems to bring 2 steps back
It’s like playing Shoots and Ladders
That game was always whack.
I just want to feel normal
I just want to be me again
Back when life was easy
Back when I had friends
Who would listen if I needed
Who would catch me if when fall
Who would pick up the phone
Friends who weren’t too busy to call
Friends who kept me from feeling alone
But I’m not here to bash my friends
They have troubles of their own
I just hope none of my friends
Ever feel this much alone.