Why
Do I cry
Over someone
Who doesn’t want
Me?
Why
Does it hurt
To miss someone
Who doesn’t see
Me?
Why
Do I try?
Why
Do I
Keep letting
You
Hurt Me?
Why
Do I care
That you’re not
There?
Why
Am I blind
To all that is
Here
Right here
In front of
Me?
Why
Do I
Keep getting
My Hopes
Up?
When it is
Plain to see
That You
Don’t
Give A Damn
About
Me…
200 people
Took time out of their day
To stop and wish me
A Happy Birthday
But one “friend”
Could not take the time
To tell me that I
Was on their mind
So many people
Showing they care
But I’m stuck opining
For the one
Who wasn’t even there…
Nobody’s coming to save me
Nobody’s coming to set me free
I have to move forward by myself
Because I can’t depend on anyone else
If I am ever going to move on
I am the only one I can depend on
Nobody’s coming to save me
Nobody’s coming to set me free
I have to move forward on my own
I have to do this all alone
It took losing you
To find myself
I thought you were want I wanted
More than anyone else
But now that you’re gone
I can finally see
I wasn’t looking for you
I was trying to re-find me
I wasn’t happy with the life I had
The constant monotony
Just made me sad
I poured my heart and soul
Into loving you
Spent all my time
Trying to build something new
Now I look back
And see that I was wrong
What I needed
Was in front of me all along
I was just blind
I couldn’t see
Too busy trying to be
Everything for someone else
Neglecting the one
Who loves me more
Than anyone else
It took losing you
To finally find myself
I thought I wanted you
But all I really wanted was me.
Rainbow Phoenix Poetry 