Tag: Healing

It Took Losing You, To Find Myself

It took losing you
To find myself
I thought you were want I wanted
More than anyone else
But now that you’re gone
I can finally see
I wasn’t looking for you
I was trying to re-find me
I wasn’t happy with the life I had
The constant monotony
Just made me sad
I poured my heart and soul
Into loving you
Spent all my time
Trying to build something new
Now I look back
And see that I was wrong
What I needed
Was in front of me all along
I was just blind
I couldn’t see
Too busy trying to be
Everything for someone else
Neglecting the one
Who loves me more
Than anyone else
It took losing you
To finally find myself
I thought I wanted you
But all I really wanted was me.

Every Day Thanksgiving

You said I was your Twin Flame
You taught me to love again
Showed me who I was supposed to be
You were the one who set my heart free
You freed me from my cell
You were the oasis from the hell
Taught me the difference between Life & Living
You made every day Thanksgiving
Then one day your feelings changed
And our friendship was now strange
You needed time and space
No longer could I see your face
You needed to find yourself
Couldn’t give your heart to someone else
You turned away from me
So that you could be free
And now we don’t talk at all
No longer message, no longer call
My heart was full of pain
Thought I could never love again
My head and heart still remember
All the things you said back in December
All the plans that we had made
And all the words we both said
And I meant each and everyone
But if our story is finally done
You’re still my twin flame
Even if we never talk again
You showed me love
You showed me care
You helped me face my fears
And for all of that I thank you
You taught me to love again
Showed me who I was supposed to be
You were the one who set my heart free
You freed me from my cell
You were the oasis from the hell
Taught me the difference between Life & Living
You made every day Thanksgiving

I Had to Let You Go

I had to let you go
It hurt too much
Holding on to a dream
Holding on to us
When so long ago
You moved on
I had to let you go
To get away from the pain
That cut me like a knife
Knowing you didn’t feel the same
I had to let you go
It hurt too much to watch
Seeing you move on with your life
Seeing the future that I lost
I had to let you go
I can’t even be your friend
Talking to you got my hopes up
That we’d be together again
I had to let you go
There were too many reminders of you
Rain, Rainbows, All our Songs
And the talking owls, too
I had to let you go
It hurt too much
Holding on to a dream
Holding on to us
I had to let you go
So I could finally find me.

You’re Still There

You’re still there
And I’m still here
Ignoring each other
After all of these years
You don’t say a word
So I won’t either
This game of Ignoring
Doesn’t make this easier
I can see you there
And I know you see me
But keep up this charade
I don’t understand why
But I stopped putting
Myself out there
I no longer try
Because all I ever do
Is get my hope up
That we’re no longer through
While I sit around
And I wait for you
But the sun still shines
Birds fly through the air
I’m still here
And you’re still there
But I’m done worrying
If you still care…

What Are We Doing?

What are we doing?
What is this game?
We never talk to each other
And when we do, it’s so vague.
It’s like we’re trying fake a friendship
For the sake of still being friends
Keeping each other around
Not wanting the friendship to end
But it feels like that died
When you took back your heart
And when we force it
It just feels like lies
Ripping my insides apart
So I avoid you,
Even though it’s you I miss
My life’s a void without you
There’s always something amiss
And so many reminders
Of the times you said you cared
Walking through life with blinders
Because you’re no longer there.
So we keep playing this game
We keep on pretending
Trying to move on
And trying to be friendly
It would hurt less, If you were gone
And I knew you couldn’t see me
But you’re there, your green light’s on
You just keep on
Looking on, looking right past me
I hate what we’re doing
I hate this game
I don’t want to play it anymore

The Realization

I don’t hate you
But I hate being ignored
I do miss you
And the way things were before
But you’re busy with your life
You were able to move on
While inside my head
I couldn’t accept you were gone
But you ignore me
And I feel bad
Talking to you
Only makes me sad
It’s all one-sided
I’m the one who starts
So I’ve forced myself
To let you go
To no longer reach out
I won’t follow you on social media
I won’t attempt to text
Or message you either
I have to learn to accept
That we will never be
That your new life
Does not include me
So I guess it’s time for me
To do what I’ve not been able to
It’s time for me to move on
And build a new life
A new life, without You…

A Falling Leaf

A falling leaf
But I’m at peace
Because the sun’s still shining
As I sit all alone
Out here on my own
Trying to find me
And just like the sun,
Life does move on
I’m putting you behind me
I thought my world
Had come to an end
Trying to live without you
But I was too blind to see
The world around me
There’s so much more to do
Than sit at home
To cry and moan
Because the love you promised
Wasn’t true
So I sit alone
Out here on my own
I’m finally at peace
The leaves have replaced the tears
It’s been a long year
The highs were high
And the lows were low
But the sun’s still shining
As I sit all alone
Out here on my own
Trying to find me
And just like the sun,
Life does move on
I’m putting you behind me

I Closed the Door

I closed the door on you
I closed the door on us
Not that I want us to be through
But to get back who I was
Back when I was happy
And found beauty in the world
Back before things felt crappy
Without the love of 1 girl
You have always had
A special place in my heart
But I’m tired of being sad
Like you, I need a new start
So I closed the door on you
And I closed the door on us
Time to move on
Now that the love is gone
Time for me to go find me
Time to set myself free
Time to figure out who I am
In this new reality…