Old Love

Old Love…
Leave Me Alone…
These are the words
From one of my favorite Clapton songs
Twin Flames, you said we were
But now your flame no longer burns…
As I lie here, in this bed alone,
Wondering how I’ll ever get back to
A white hot love, that’s now gone
“Old Love” blaring from the speakers
And dancing around in my head
Laying alone in this empty bed
Remembering all of the words you said…
“And it’s making me so angry…
To know that the flame still burns…”
Clapton softly sings
A “River of Tears” streaming down my face…
Stinging the corners of my eyes,
As the memories still race
Around in circles inside my head
My stomach and my heart both filled with dread…
Music used to be my getaway, my escape.
The music I used to love,
Now fills me with hate-
“Makes me so angry
To know that the flame still burns
Why can’t I get over?
When will I ever learn?
Old love…”


The moment we first met
I felt us connect
And you said you felt it too
Then we became friends
With an invisible bond, a tether
Our friendship could end? Never!
I always loved you from afar
Held a space deep in my heart
But I could never tell you
I didn’t want to ruin it
Didn’t want to see our friendship end
But we shared a bond so deep
We shared a bond so true
One day I finally had to tell you-
I told you my hopes
I told you my fears
I told you my dreams
I showed you my tears
I gave you my heart
To you, I bared my soul
You promised to be here
Together, We’d grow old
You let me in
Said we’d still be friends
No matter what happens…
But now you’ve moved on-
Both love and friendship are gone
Another shot in the gut
But I’m such a dope
For holding out hope
That one day we’ll be together
Just a bump in the road
On our path to always
Our path to forever
But I’m still here
And you’re still there
We don’t even talk any more
I can’t look at you
Without feeling blue
Can’t think of you and not be sad
Should have kept it inside
I shouldn’t have tried…
I could have saved my tears
Would have saved a whole year
A year of sadness and anger
But I tempted Fate
And I learned too late
That we’re not even friends
We’re still Strangers…

Out of Sight, Out of Mind

Out of sight
Out of mind
I gave you space
I gave you time
Took back your heart
And gave back mine
Said we’d still be friends
But you were just lying
Sometimes I start
To fall apart
Remembering all
Those things you said
Like we’d always
Be together
Turns out forever’s
Not really forever
A love grown cold
A friendship severed
You said we’d grow old
Spend the rest of our lives together
I’d hold your hand
And you’d hold mine
Always and Forever
Until the end of time
But you needed time
And you needed space
You needed something
That I couldn’t replace
So now we just float on by
Words left unsaid
We’re both alive
But our love is dead
Both out of sight
Both out of mind
Hope you’re enjoying your space
Hope you’re enjoying your time
While I try to get over
The fact you’re no longer mine
You still have your heart
I still have mine
This loneliness is maddening
I’m going out of my mind…

Every Day Thanksgiving

You said I was your Twin Flame
You taught me to love again
Showed me who I was supposed to be
You were the one who set my heart free
You freed me from my cell
You were the oasis from the hell
Taught me the difference between Life & Living
You made every day Thanksgiving
Then one day your feelings changed
And our friendship was now strange
You needed time and space
No longer could I see your face
You needed to find yourself
Couldn’t give your heart to someone else
You turned away from me
So that you could be free
And now we don’t talk at all
No longer message, no longer call
My heart was full of pain
Thought I could never love again
My head and heart still remember
All the things you said back in December
All the plans that we had made
And all the words we both said
And I meant each and everyone
But if our story is finally done
You’re still my twin flame
Even if we never talk again
You showed me love
You showed me care
You helped me face my fears
And for all of that I thank you
You taught me to love again
Showed me who I was supposed to be
You were the one who set my heart free
You freed me from my cell
You were the oasis from the hell
Taught me the difference between Life & Living
You made every day Thanksgiving

Turning Back The Clock

Turning back time
Before there was a you and I
Trying to forget
The words you said and why
Turning back the clock
To when we were merely friends
A joke here, a comment there
There was no love to end
Except you were always in my heart
And always on my mind
You were there from the start
You were there all the time
No I have to pretend
That I never loved you
Turned back the clock
To when we were just friends
Back before I told you
But it’s difficult to erase
All the feelings that you gave me
It’s difficult not to see your face
When I close my eyes and dream
Because I have always loved you
Loved you from the very start
In my dreams, it was always you
Who lived inside my heart
So I just can’t turn back the clock
Can’t twist the hands of time
Because even though
I never said the words
I always wanted you to be mine.
Easy for you to move on
Accept our love’s now gone
But you were the center
Of my world
To me you were the sun.
You turned back the hands of time
Before there was a you and I
I guess you forgot
The words you said
Forgot the reasons why
Now to you, we’re just friends again
There’s no more you and I…